its been quite sometime since the last post, but i did not really have a lot to write about. even now there isnt much to say. no,correction:there is too much to say and no apparent outlet. so many incidents, so many thoughts, so many emotions...all have merged to form this huge body of "I DON'T KNOW."anyway,there are a few things i would like to say...(duh)...
last week was one of my bestest friend's 18th birthday. we have been friends for 5 years and something months now. i can safely say that she is one of the wierdest people i know. she is not of this world and is utterly disinterested in anything related to it. i remember once in the 7th standard, during one particularly sleepy geography class, this friend of mine was sitting on her chair perfectly still (read:sitting still) and BAM!she fell off her chair, only to realise it after the rest of us. in the 9th standard, she stood up to ask the teacher to let her search for her lost glasses. she sat down and CRUNCH! well,she found them all right!!!
she is one of thee most important people in my life. she is the one who brought harry potter into my life. i just want her to know that i love her extremely much and always will. also thank her for making school so much fun and making my life so much more complete. us (me,her and one more) have been through a lot together and we are just getting stronger by the day. we bring just that little dash of wonderful insanity to each other's lives:)
ok. that was emotional (i hope). there is something that has been disturbing me and i need anyone who is reading this to help me figure this out. some friends of mine claim they are "confused." they do not dare to take chances because they are scared of the consequences. they do not want to ruin what they have by taking chances. they are "insecure,confused people by nature." whats,ifs,buts,what ifs,etc. etc...
yes, i understand we all have our fears. but does it make sense to let those fears get the better of us than our wants? why is everything that is temporary automatically forbidden territory? yes, things do not always work out, but why not try it and know atleast. what is the pleasure in saying "what if" forever? is it so wrong to be selfish sometimes? why remain confused when you can know? why can we not live even temporary things and make the best of it? sometimes, by being too cautious, we kill a little of our dreams, our needs, and a little of ourselves.
please people, tell me!!!
p.s.:Ja, Mo,...i love you both.
p.p.s.:another question for my patient reader: you know love? as in the man-woman kind of (crappy) love? i do not mean the "i love you because its couples only night at the pub tonight." i mean love as in the real,honest, genuine kind? if you do, then tell me,is it possible to feel this kind of love for more than one person (2,3....) at the same time?
10 comments:
u think ur reader is god?
anyway.. i dont know about the love part.. not me.. i dont know all that.
i can answer the confused part.
confusion arises from not having the willingness to commit.. not wating to take the leap..for one you must be bruttaly honest with urself.. since im confused about many things i do know.. you must must be honest to urself.. thats point number one.
two, you must prioritize, you must figure out what you want to do.. and wat you like.. it helps you making choices.. it helps to take riskes..because u believe in wat you like and are willing to stand up for it.
you must figure out your philosophy of living your life..concsiously or sub consciously we all have one.. we must believe in it.. and and stick by it.. thru the roughest of times..ofcors thats wat philosophy is for..not just for deceiding if you want to eat chocolate or not but for deceiding if going against yopur parents, breaking out of your shell and cutting the leash is a good thing.. it helps ur making choices again.
there is no forbidden territory.. not if you want to do something.. then there is noe fear..i swaer there is no fear..there is just infinte ecstacy.. you just want to do it.. have you ever felt that ecstacy.. its crazy..its infectious and wat more its satisfactory.
but then wat the hell i really dont noe wat a risk it.. really.. if you want to do something.. then wat the hell is a risk?
some tiny ant crawling on the floor.. see the risk?
the swat it and move on.. get what you want..the goal is the only thing that matters.. rest all secondary and just form thr fabric on your life.
satisfied pinky? :P
if not read this.
http://abbeblah.blogspot.com/2007/05/phony-phony-world.html
kya be.. pyar vyar ho gaya kya tereko :P.. raghu saaley.. kuch kar.. yeh kya ho raha hai.. tera patta kat raha hai :P
you want all the answers at eighteen? fat chance, i'd say.
oh shit..oh my god.. mera dimag kitna slow hain..i shud have guessed it.. aarrggh..dhoka!
total saaley.. tera toh game hua hai.. chaalu sangy ki chaalu behen :P
haan saala ekdum woh 3rd class bollywood thriller ke thrah feel ho raha hai.. maza sheets.. kya dhoka hai yeh!
yes raghu thankks for the wonderful philosophy.you are so right.just need to hold on to my philosophy,however crappy it may be.thanks a lot:)
yes itll work..everything works.. we will ALWAYS survive.. if a peacock can survive..why cant we?
@raghu.
um...peacock?
you know it very well that if i read anything that u have written it's only that i've done. i can never comment on such stuff.every question u ask me i have the same answers fr them:"i don't knw, naina"or "you knw the fact that i m s o useless but still you keep on asking me these questions", or i give some crappy answer which makes no sense at all(exactly why its called crap-god see i toldya i m so useless)
but the whole thing abt avi was good.and i LOVE U too.and always will.
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