Here It Ends.

my sweet reader,the following post is for a friend, sort of a letter actually. and its kind of strange. read on,but you have been warned...
hi. how have you been? i'm writing this to tell you all that i can and the strangest thing is that i'll never know whether you will ever read this or not. anyway...
let me begin by thanking you for all that you have done for me and more than that. you have been great. you have made me so much stronger. thankyou for the faith, the love, the trust...thankyou for being "you."
we have had quite a journey together. we have seen the ups and the lows. i'll never forget how patient you have been with me. all those times i'd dump all my frustration on you and you would listen. all those times i have cried on your shoulder and you let me, so patiently. we have never failed to be there for each other. its been beautiful, thanks.
i remember someone telling me that i try too hard to be understood. i do not know about the "too hard" part, but i guess most of us try to be understood. but with you, i never, NEVER had to try. you accepted me, in every sense of the word. somewhere you became another best friend. i thought that this was truly "friends forever."
and look at what has happened. i cannot bring myself to believe it. i cannot believe that now i'm actually going on without you, that you are a part of my past now. i cannot believe how badly we have hurt each other. sorry. i truly am sorry.
call it coincidence or plain dumb luck, but guess what song is playing in the cyber?
if only you could see the tears
in the world you left behind
if only you could hear my heart
just one more time
even when i close my eyes
there's an image of your face
and once again i come to realize
you are a loss i can't replace...soledad...
you hurt me, yes you did. i wish i could say "lets just forget it and move on." but i'm not in a position to do that. so what if we are not friends any longer, we have those memories that we made. they will last, trust me. but for all the trust and the love, some hurts just simply run too deep.
maybe one day, say 10 years from now, we should meet? i just hope that day i have it in me to look you in the eye and say "so?what have you been upto this past decade?" but right now, its just too much. i do not think we can forgive and forget so easily.
anyway, i just hope you can find all the happiness you are looking for. i also hope that you never have a friend like me again. you are better off without people like us. we do not make for good friends anyway. just know, you are missed. also know, i am sorry. and i know you are too.but guess that will not do, will it?
now i have to stop writing before people start staring at the freak who looks like she has been crying in a cyber. all the best. stay well and take good care of yourself, ok?
p.s.: somehow i am not able to post a comment on the last post. so this is a reply to another brick on the wall: stop feeding nonsensical ideas into paranoid raghu's head. relax! i'm not in love. that is one blessed emotion i am not capable of.