back finally.and had a horrible time away.should.have turned into a blogging traitor.just to keep you updated,i have been ill with a throat infection for some two weeks now.yes i went to a doc.was useless...yay!and for the first time,i was declared"not well enough" for my prelims...so yay yay yay!
ok so i am irritated once again.gee!its a talent i tell you!i know its normal to feel lost sometimes,like i do right now. but normal is meaningless. i have started to lose faith in a lot of things lately. cant say for sure i ever had faith in a lot of people actually. you know those times when you feel like a fool? yes i know...that is normal too. its just that i have been feeling like that a lot lately.
life is full of pain...or so people say. then why can one not just get used to it. why do the same things hurt again and again with the same magnitude if not more. and what is one supposed to do again and again?
i see,feel things slipping from me.everything that i have known,understood...slipping away. how do you get back your self respect? i was never a big fan of me, and i like myself lesser and lesser every time. no these are not teenege pangs (dear sis). this is the after effect of letting people walk over you.
i miss my father a lot. he took pride in what he was. i know now how hard that is a thing to do. i just regret the fact that he was not there long enough to teach me that. i do not think he is too proud of me right now. i am not complaining, i have never given him reason to actually. but i know he loves me all the same. its a rare thing...unconditional love. but there is a quote from the Wonder Years that makes me happy about him. it goes....
"some things are deeper than time and distance.And your father will always be your father...And he will always leave a light on for you."
3 comments:
ah, teenage pangs :P
well, let's just say i understand.
try the song zoe jane by staind.. its a beautiful song from a father to a daughter.. and life is not all pain.. nor happiness.. its nothing.. its just wat u make of it.. it just is.. indifferent probably.. i dunno.. as they say.. its all about choice.. we choose finally how we wanna feel.. thts wat adaptation is all about i guess.. man am myself so confused.. i really shudn't be advising ppl :)
its alrt gal.. they are all just phases.. it'll pass.. we all finally are waiting.. no one knows for wat.. but crap.. we hav ntn else to do.. so lets just wait :S
ok.. its ok.. start liking yourself.. or be as you would like yourself to be.. be as you'd want yourself to be.. thats pretty much the key to self love and respect n all.. keep yourself stuck to your tase.. dont give a damn about the wolrd.. dats about it..like yourself..respect yourself.. its bliss.
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